Hi! My name is Karen Roth, welcome to my personal blog. This blog follows the story of my life for 3 years (from May 2010 to December 2013) during which time I made the decision to leave a dysfunctional marriage and relocate to Miami from Virginia, with little more than faith and optimism. I spent the first 2 years struggling to make ends meet, with no job while going through a divorce – trying to get a business off the ground with my meager, yet mutually agreeable, divorce settlement. Ultimately, I ran out of money before the business could take off and I found myself dealing with the painful reality of financial failure and the prospect of returning home to live with my parents at the age of 50. Just as I was thinking that my life couldn’t get any worse, I had a breast cancer scare – with no health insurance. As a woman of faith, I made the decision to accept this ‘less than perfect’ reality as part of God’s greater plan for my life. (Thankfully, my biopsy revealed benign “calcifications”.)
At the eleventh hour, after my last job possibility fell through, I reluctantly drove to Home Depot to purchase boxes to pack up. I sat in the parking lot for some time, crying and praying. Something in the deepest part of my soul was telling me “you’re not moving” (interestingly, my mother was getting the same message)– but with less than $200. in my checking account, circumstances dictated that I ‘put on my big girl panties’ and get on with it. I went into the store and got the moving boxes.
And then, everything changed…Before I could unload the boxes, a family member called and offered me a consulting position that would cover my living expenses and allow me to work from home. Another week passed and I met ‘the man’ who would eventually become my husband – you can view and read about my surreal wedding day in my final blog post, dated 12/30/2013.
I know that many of you are in the midst of overwhelming situations – a bad relationship, a dead-end job or no job, or you may have devastating health issues, and maybe, like me, you’re dealing with all of these things. Maybe you are clinging to your faith by a tiny thread, or maybe you’re not even sure that God exists. I get it. I’ve been there. There were more than a few times that I felt like giving up, at the point of real despair. I remember praying, “I need something more than just ‘hope!”‘ – something tangible after so many years of living on ‘faith’. And somehow, each time, just when I was ready to give up, something would happen to get me through to the next moment of trust – the Unseen, guiding me through the waters.
I hope that my experiences will bring you the encouragement you need to face whatever it is that you are dealing with. Know that you are not alone, no matter how much you may feel that you are. God has a purpose and a plan for every trial you endure. Just hold on. All trials have their end. Your faith will be rewarded.
2 When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.